"What is it that you seek?"

This question, asked by Jesus of two of John the Baptist's disciples (John 1:38), was meant to be a question that found its way into the heart. Although the two disciples did not answer the question directly, they expressed their yearning by referring to Christ as "Teacher," and asked where he was staying.

Within each person God placed a yearning to be reunited with Him. This comes with the soul that He breathed into each one of us as we were being knitted together in our mother's womb. St. Augustine mentioned this 1,600 years ago when he wrote, God has made us for Himself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in Him." Even St. Gregory of Nazianzen wrote, "In my earthly nature I am attached to life here below, while I also have in me a portion of the godhead; therefore my heart is tormented by the desire for the world to come."

Some people do not recognize what this yearning is, or how to respond to it. Without proper guidance they become distracted by the things of this world and attempt to fill this void with material acquisitions, addictions, false power, or other illusions. This is the broad road that leads to nowhere.

Other people recognize the yearning for what it is; the call of God's love, compassion and companionship. They seek to respond to this call of love in a spiritually-based way instead of one based on man's ways. As God says to us in Isaiah 55, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways."

So, we seek to shape our life around what we believe will bring us closer to God and be pleasing to Him. We turn to the time-honored traditions of our monastic brothers and sisters, and build a life based on His love.

We come to know that living these monastic principles gradually dissolves the false self that encapsulates our soul. The further we go, and the more we travel, the more we empty ourselves out so that we can let God work His will through us. This is the model that Saint Paul described in Philippians when he said, "Let the same mind be in you that was Christ Jesus, Who, though he was in the form of God, did not regard equality with God as something to be exploited. But he emptied himself, taking on the form of a servant, being born in human likeness, and he humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death - even death on a cross." (Phili. 2:5-8)

At some point in our journey we begin to see Christ in others, we begin to appreciate nature as being sacred, we begin to see things we use every day as gifts from God, and we begin to understand that our actions are sacraments of God's steadfast love in the world. We truly become the hands, feet, eyes and lips of God - but most importantly we become His heart.

When we pass from this life to the next, we continue to carry with us our love and compassion that Jesus taught us and the Holy Spirit sustains within us. We gain a new and greater intimacy with Our Father, and join the eternal feast with His other servants, continuing to grow in His love and service.

To help guide us there, we can occasionally take some contemplative time and ask ourselves, "What is it that I seek?" This makes for an excellent reflective question and meditative exercise. Take some time with it and write down your response in your journal. Perhaps do it once a month to make sure that your spiritual compass continues to point toward His heart.

May God be with you on your journey!